Wednesday, September 14, 2005
This past week has been a hellish one—the nausea, the paranoia, the disconnection from reality. It was probably the darkest place I have been and I don’t ever want to go through the experience again. I once read somewhere that the reason why human beings don't remember being born is because it's one of the most traumatic/painful experiences we could endure. That’s why the mind shuts it out, hides it in the closets of our subconscious. I can see the point. Being born is a violent shaking of the senses, awakening a newborn to the harshness of this world. Detoxification and birth share certain similarities. They are both raw and disorienting experiences. That’s the way I feel right now, being pushed through a tunnel, my body thrown into seizure, forced out of darkness and into the unnerving glow of things.